sup. this is me. or an ARTIST’S RENDITION of me, by me. so a self cartoon portrait i guess? anyway. that’s not the point. the point is i have been seeing a lot of fat shaming, body hate and all that gubbins up on my dash lately. girls claiming they NEED to lose weight to be beautiful, that no man will EVER find them attractive. and so much negativity on the body you own, that is yours. be fucking proud of it. me? i’ve said it before but i’m fat. i’m not going to sugar coat that or pussy foot around the term. fat is fat, man. and that i be.
and guess what.
i am fucking fabulous.
when i was a younger girl i was always chubby, and i had people telling me i was too fat for leggings, for dresses. that my face was too fat for a short haircut, that i was too pale for black hair so i should stop dying it. the list goes on and on and on. and yeah, when i was younger? it got to me. but all it took was one guy on some forum somewhere that told me i was beautiful. every pound, every inch, all my jiggly bits, rolls and what-have-you. and i believed him. then i started believing in myself. i stopped wearing baggy as hell clothes, i bought dresses and leggings and LOUD COLORS and i dyed my hair whatever the fuck i wanted, got haircuts for what i liked and thought would be awesome. i had self confidence coming out of me in SPADES. and you know what? i attracted attention. not all of it good, but no one ever gets good attention all the time and if you say so you’re fucking lying. but i got GREAT attention too. guys and girls were noticing me, i was more confident, i looked and felt good. i still do.yet i didn’t lose any weight, in fact i think i gained like twenty pounds or more. i have no idea, i threw my scale away. numbers on a machine are never going to dictate my life again or tell me what i’m worth.
so a run-down.
WHAT I AM:
+kind of narcissistic, sue me
WHAT I AM NOT:
all body types are beautiful. there isn’t a ‘right’ body type. and shame on you if you promote that shit. i swear to god i am unfollowing anyone who ever says ‘fat and ugly.’ naw. there ain’t no thing as fat and ugly. you can be fat, you can be ugly, but you can’t be both. that shit isn’t true.
hate me and shame me for being an asshole, a bad person, or what the hell ever. but never, EVER, EVER, hate or shame on me because i’m fat.